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終於 決心 不在這裡寫. 很多Netizens 都經歷過搬blog或離開. 以前總不明白為甚麼. 今天, 我也遇上我的原因. 一直以為會在xanga寫很長時間. 結果. 姐總喜歡把她人馬座的特點掛在嘴邊: 喜歡冒險, 覺得人生應該充滿risks and adventures; the unexpected. 或者有些事情不如所想也不必太介懷在意吧. Pygmalion 裡有一個message/point一直都很深刻: 有些事情/狀況, 經歷過改變以後, 不可能回到從前的樣子. 好像Eliza經過她的metamorphosis之後, 不可能在回到街頭賣花. 不是adaptability的問題. 變了, 就是不能回. Byebye Xanga! PS 可惜未能three years in a row celebrate Cillian's B-day here =(
BIG early Happy Birthday to our dear man!!! | | |
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| From wiki: 調景嶺寮屋區1948年國共內戰，戰事由黃河流域蔓延至長江流域。很多戰敗及受傷的國民黨黨員都南逃到廣州，但最後都失守。後來大部份中國國民黨黨員都跟隨中華民國政府遷至台灣，但其中亦有很多逃到香港。由於當年中國共產黨不敢對作為英國殖民地的香港進兵，於是很多躲避赤化的大陸人士都到了香港。其實來港的國軍老兵最初都不是住在調景嶺的，而是當年港英政府安置的香港島摩星嶺公民村，然而在1950年6月18日，一群約80餘人的左派學生前往摩星嶺難民區向老兵們挑釁，最後更演變成流血衝突。 1950年4月18日，香港政府行政局的會議上，擬定於摩星嶺難民營搬遷到大嶼山的梅窩。後來因當地村民強烈反對，把這群老兵和家眷約7,800人遷往調景嶺。後來，香港政府社會局救濟署署長李孑農取「吊頸嶺」的諧音，改稱為「調景嶺」[3]，有「調整景況」之意。 早年其位置十分偏僻，比摩星嶺荒蕪得多，自成一角。山上沒有水沒有電，就連半點生活條件都沒有，同時沒有道路往外面。對外的交通工具只能依賴前往筲箕灣的渡輪。待至1956年，寶琳路建成，調景嶺居民才有一條道路通往九龍市區。 調景嶺具有很濃厚的政治色彩，嶺內各學校於每年10月10日都會放假及全村舉行儀式紀念中華民國成立，並長年掛起青天白日滿地紅旗，在英國統治時期並不刻意干預這些活動的進行。 政府初時在調景嶺興建超過1000個只以油紙塔建簡陋A字屋棚，長闊高均約為8尺，每個A字棚往4個人。這次搬遷人數共6921人，包括5592名男性，1329名女性。（據1950年的調查，這6000餘人中，大數為成年男性，年齡介乎20至40歲之間。16歲以上的婦女只有577人，15歲以下兒童則有610人；傷殘人士1763人，他們的家屬有477人）居民來自不同省份，當中大半是退伍軍人，但也有不少是政界與學界人士，甚至包括國大代表、立法委員、中學校長等。據說他們一般不會輕易表露過去在大陸的身分。其後，陸續有更多人從外頭搬到這裡，僅不足半年，估計沒有飯票而居往在調景嶺的人口已達5000-6000以上。換言之，1950年12月，調景嶺的人口已逾10,000。居民以難民自居，由當時的社會局（社會福利署前身）派發糧食，後期由港九熱心人士組成港九救委會開展救濟工作，並在營內設立難民服務處提供協助，另外天主教教會及基督教方面亦提供就業，教育等大力協助，村內曾設有多間學校如天主教鳴遠中學，慕德中學等，基督教靈實醫院亦隨後建立。 隨著居民出外打工及開始山寨式手工，生活漸漸改善，並形成倚山而建，橫區而治的獨特社區，政府在村內只設郵局及消防局，警署在山頂上，村民自設治安隊巡邏以防左派入村及在水源下毒，守望相助，而台灣方面曾安排渡輪接載部分退役國軍返台灣。
寮屋區清拆但隨著香港主權即將移交，及將軍澳新市鎮的發展，政府於1995年4月4日正式宣布清拆調景嶺寮屋區，寮屋區在1996年4月至7月期間清拆，所有居民在政府賠償下，被遷徙至其他地區，約有6500名調景嶺平房區居民獲安置入住公共房屋，當中很大部份的人都遷進了將軍澳的厚德邨。直到現在，他們還過著跟從前在調景嶺一樣的守望相助的生活。
現況調景嶺原址目前為健明邨，附近亦有私人屋苑，如都會駅。區內原設有的調景嶺中學在調景嶺清拆之前已遷往康盛花園改為景嶺書院，而天主教鳴遠中學及慕德中學皆遷往厚德邨。今日的調景嶺交通方便，港鐵觀塘綫和將軍澳綫均途經調景嶺站。 要不是之前台灣的導遊姐姐提起, 還不知道調景嶺以前原來是類似'眷村'的物體. 以前總不覺得以前的香港跟兩岸政治有很密切的關係, 因為自己本身已經有很複雜的殖民地問題要搞. "左! 右! 左! 右! 左! 右! 左D呀! 右番少少!" 因為有這麼一段歷史, 我們以後閱讀, 理解香港的政治都不能脫離 colonial context. 或者應該說我們的政治體發展在殖民地時代, 所以要在這之上發展下去是 inevitably correlated with the whole colonial story. 特區的身分也是來自 ex-colony 的身分. (然後郁D又比人話反共云云.) It is indeed another kind of imbalance of power, in that everything related to ex-colonies somehow cannot be read detached from the colonial context, while it is not the case for ex-colonizers. I think the problem lies in that the ex-colonizers set the standards in the past, for example, the form and function of different genres of literature, the measure of modernity etc. So when the colonies become ex-es, liberated, and begin to engage in things, for instance literature production, if they follow the Western form it's colonial influence; if they do it entirely opposite the Western way it's resistance of colonial influence; if it's something in between, well, it's a hybrid of colonial influence and anticolonialism. In essence, because the West set the very first standards for these things as literature, technology, etc, they are Western products. And paradoxically the theories used to explain these phenomena (colonialism, postcolonialism, neocolonialism...) are intrinsically Western. It's all very paradoxical. 剪不斷, 理還亂. | | |
| I thought I had set my heart on giving up typing here. But it's always very random. Everything is. So I 'relapse'. (Nay, not really!) I mean I dun think I should confine myself to a habit or a rountine I've tried to build. It's interesting (and ironic and pathetic) that every time we try to break away from routines we're tired of, everytime we tried to give our lifes a nouvelle vague, we end up constructing new routines for ourselves. So the breaking of the old rule of blogging becomes itself the new rule, new restriction. And what's most ironic is this. The whole taking a break thing resulted from an increasing sense that blogging is creating a fake self, a fake voice, and taking pleasure in donning this entirely false identity. The mere thought of it is scary enough. And typing becomes a habit, almost an addiction that even beats drugs (And therein is the whole story of cyber age living and our cognition and psychology and stuff). The whole purpose of quitting blogging is to check this kind of self exposure and creation that is, I'd say, 70% conscious at least, and to break from the habitual activation of this fake self that has gradually entered the unconscious. But breaking from a habit becomes itself a forced restriction. (I've come to realize that most of the time I live under restraint, some of it self-imposed, as if I cannot survive as a normal me if I do not constantly restrain myself.) But perhaps the world is fundamentally inconstant. Things are essentially changing. (When days are good and peaceful we tend to forget about this.) Perhaps I should learn to accept that the mind changes all the time, and there's nothing wrong about it. (That only proves it's functioning!) And of course girls are always granted the privilege of changing whenever they feel like. Shelley says change. He says motion. He says be the wind, free your thoughts. He says liberation. I always love it here. It's like a tiny house by the sea. I can always come back, sit a little, rest a little, think a little, speak what's in my mind (that has been accumulating). Maybe I'm going to change my mind a second later. But must I reason it with myself? I dun think anyone needs to justify anything with himself/herself. Yes, Shelley says intuition. | | |
| Dined at Susu's last night! Avec Jerran, Cindy and Emily =)
So long time no see Susu! Had a really enjoyable time! Delicious food~~ Puri and some curry, and homemade yogurt, and sth like mango sorbet which was really really good!! And yoga after meal lol lol And a great deal of talking =) Thanks Jerran for doing the contacting and organizing~~
Thanks everyone =) ************ Susu said she would not emotional-blackmail her children; if she worried about them, that's her problem.
I listened to that with a sigh. For me, emotional-blackmailing is something I've known for as long as my life so far. In the society I know of, it is made justified; legitimized. I think it is in the genes of all Chinese people, in the belief of whom for everything the upside is credited to parents and the downside to kids. Parents are never wrong, kids never right. If this is too much a generalization, at least I'm 101% sure emotional-blackmailing is in the gene of my Mom. I can surely take her to a DNA analysis and I will definitely find, along with a gene for earlobe and a gene for slimness, a gene that is tagged "emotional-blackmail other people in order to gain control over them".
*sigh* ************ For some time I've fooled myself that what we're doing here isn't that bad, it's actually quite ok, blah blah blah. But after hearing more from Emily last night, I have to say I share Jerran's sentiments: wishing we were somehow in CU... *sigh* 10 courses minimum makes a major here. No compulsory foundational linguistics. In fact, not having seriously learnt any foundational linguistics of English, I dun feel I've studied English at all. And really so few courses on literature here... (And why the h did they cut romanticism?!) If I had been in CU, I could really have enjoyed the Eng stud there--- so now I believe.
And it's been a long time since I last enjoyed the company of novels. Since university English has become quite estranged to me. And it's so well-known how HK people hate people speaking in English. Even I myself often feel that speaking in English does make me sound snobbish to others (particularly as I dun speak perfectly). It's been a drastic change for the worse, from college to uni; and more rapid than I've imagined.
*double sighs* I remember that year, 2005 I think, near the end of which I finally picked up P&P, because there's a movie coming, and because I saw Emily with it lol lol And I thought, "ok, I gotta work on that too." lol
This time round, I'll put down Metamorphosis on my to-read list lol lol along with two more Austen and the long-suspended Wilde and the 'stock' of books I've bought...
I have confidence that I can accomplish this by the end of summer; I just need to shut up this damn thing called the PC and dump it in the bin. | | |
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